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Don't Be Afraid

By Malissa Kelsch, author of Life Tumbled.

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In 2001 my dad was killed in a car accident on his way to work by a drunk driver. During that time my kids were learning about rocks. We had gathered a bucket full and had begun the process of smoothing and polishing the rocks in a rock tumbler.


Just after a week of tumbling I was in the kitchen opening up the barrel and my father’s spirit came near me. He told me how our lives are like a rock tumbler.


He said our spirits have these beautiful colors. Our personalities and bodies have these jagged edges like the unpolished rocks. Additionally, in this life we will be shaped by outside forces, but also by ourselves. Sometimes life throws us grit to grind away the sharp edges and other times we purposefully shape ourselves with the grit we choose. Also, just as we are not alone in life, the influence of other rocks in the barrel help to shape us.


He then told me he was taken sooner than he had hoped, but it was alright. It was still good. Then he emphasized, “Malissa, if I knew what I know now…I would NOT be afraid. DON’T be afraid. Go! Do good.”


That has stuck with me and is what I want to share with you. Don’t be afraid. Have courage and show it by applying action. Homeschooling can be tough at times, but great spirits, and even God, are with you if you allow them into your life. All it takes is some applied action, just like the action of sand polishing the rock or being tumbled a bit.


One thing I want to emphasize is NOT to be afraid of your child’s journey, even if it moves in an unexpected direction. Your kids are the rocks and you are the grit, the tumbler, and everything between. I would like to dive into each of these just a bit.


Rocks, our children, are intelligent spirits. They can handle a lot. They are tough, made of real earth, and sometimes we may underestimate how well they can take what we give them. Never assume they cannot learn more.


My oldest son left high school when he was 15 because he was terrified of giving a speech in his speech and debate class. He began to research film, and now he has his own film production company. He found comfort and confidence following his own quiet way of learning and this led to eventual mastery of a subject he enjoys. Sometimes the fear of something uncomfortable directs us towards learning something completely different. I think a lot of young people want to learn without fear and in a more natural, comfortable way for them. So why not let them escape something they fear to find something they like? If they are like my son, they might build a career from it.


My son taught me this; we may avoid one thing because something else is more interesting and comfortable to learn. As your kids learn different subjects, more questions and avenues of learning will continue to appear. Students must choose which road to take, which intellectual avenue to explore.


Taking on the responsibility to homeschool our kids, however, is not something to fear or escape from. It is one of the highest forms of parenting we can reach for.


Grit is something I call “co-creation realization.” We are all part creators in the good and bad that comes in our life. This core principle is a difficult one to teach because it says in a way, that since we are all active creators in the grit of our lives, we all get what is coming to us. I have taken the challenge to teach my kids that they are not victims of life circumstances, but instead they co-create their lives. We are all part creators in what we learn and in what we teach. Co-creation realization is a fabulous way to teach personal responsibility. If something does not go right with any of my kids, I ask, “How did you co-create that?” Immediately they are taught they can't hide, escape, or run away in denial. They are purely conscious and aware of their every step in life.


Last is the tumbler. The tumbler is the environment we bring to our children. I think many homeschool parents are unsure, and perhaps afraid, of how to create the perfect environment in which their kids will blossom, thrive, and be strong enough for the world, while simultaneously protecting them from negative outside influences. This is where I personally see a lot of parents unconsciously hindering their children. I would like to open a few minds and maybe give some hope to this great fear of exposing your children to the world.


My husband and I created something called Local Common Wealth. The first chapter of this busi